A little proof reading anyone???

Ok - this is not the proofreading part -- but can I just say that I am incredibly freakin PISSED. If you have read my other blog entries on this blog and the other one I still can not access - then you know the issue I have with being fired from my last job. I found out today from a friend of mine who still works for that stupid company that the dumb ass, fat, unprofessional BITCH that was my supervisor at the time of my unfortunate demise - WAS THE FREAKIN ONE WHO HAD THE FINAL SAY IN MY TERMINATION!!! OMG - I am sooooooooooo mad! This stupid, ugly woman with no common sense or people skills, with less than one month of supervisory skills behind her - was able to make a decision that fucked up my life! Does anyone have a voodoo doll that they are not using?
Anyway - (breathe === deep cleansing breathes) --- the following is the start of a letter I am trying to compose to the CEO of the company that fired me. I think someone needs to pull their head of their ass and do something about the morons running that company. Please let me know your thoughts on this letter:

My name is ********** and up until September of this year, I was a faithful employee of RMHP. November 7th would have been my five year anniversary with your company. My leaving was not of my doing and that is the reason for this letter.
I truly believe that some of the things that happen within your organization are not known by everyone in your company that should know. Some of the practices and policies practiced by some of your managers is ----- to say the least.
I would like to tell you my story and I will let you decide from there. I will start by apologizing that it took two months to write this letter. It has been on my mind every day since I was terminated - I just felt I should wait until I could be rational and not make this about being mad.
I started with your company five years ago and was a dedicated employee, who loved working in claims. I started as a level one examiner and quickly excelled, through the ranks, to become a lead examiner with, at first the hospital team and then with government team. I came in on average at 7am, if I took breaks - they were at my desk so I could be there for the examiners, took 15 - 30 minute lunches and gave 110% in everything I did. I received one reprimand for inappropriate use of the email system a couple years ago for forwarding joke emails, but that was the only offense I was ever written up for.
At the end of July this year, the supervisor for the Government Products (GP) team resigned and I applied for her position, a decision I regret to this day. I was not offered that position. In fact, a person, who did not even apply for the GP supervisor, was offered and accepted that position. Management decided that she needed moved from the Quality Support team. That then left the Quality Support supervisor position open. Claims management did not post that position, they, in turn, used the pool of applicants for the GP supervisor and the position was offered and accepted by the lead for the Quality Support team who had been in the claims department for about a year. This person, the new supervisor, was not, in my opinion, qualified for this position. Within a week of her taking her new position, she was out for several days and I was told it was due to stress. She had never been in management and I believe this person was not qualified on the day-to-day working of the claims department to be able to support a team the way a supervisor should.
However, again this left a position open in claims. The Quality Support team lead position was, again, not posted and, again, the original pool of applicants was used. I was offered that position, and, after much consideration, turned it down. I stated, to the claims manager that I did not want that position as I had already been part of the Quality Support team (before it was the Quality Support team) and really enjoyed the work and challenges my position as GP lead provided me. A week after I turned this position down, I was pulled in the claims manager’s office and told that a "business decision" had been made and I was being made to take the Quality Support lead position anyway. Obviously, this was not what I wanted and I was upset that I was even given the chance to voice my opinion. However, being a professional person, I did not let that affect my work. I moved into the position and did what I was asked to do everyday. Within a month of taking my new position, I was called to Human Resources and fired. I have recently come to find out that the new supervisor, over the Quality Support team, ultimately had the final decision on my termination. I would like to know how, a person with no management experience and with less than a month in the supervisor role, was given the opportunity to terminate me.
There is one issue that came up, that I took total responsibility for, while my transition to Quality Support lead happened. There were demand letters on my desk from State Medicaid that I did not know how to respond to and that I had let go past the time-frame for response. I will not make excuses for it. They were my responsibility and I did not do the proper follow through on them. The only thing I will state is that I tried on multiple occasions to receive guidance on how to work them and never received that assistance. This was a major offense, that I, again, took complete responsibility for and offered to fix. I was not given that option.

Reba!!!

Can I just say - first and formost - I have got to be one of the BIGGEST Reba McEntire fans around! I absolutely love this woman! My husband is convinced that, given the chance, I would marry her - and sometimes I think I would agree!
I have been a fan for over 15 years now - I own just about every CD she has put out. I am missing two of them. But I am working on it! I follow everything that she does and even call the local radio stations to correct them when they say any stat wrong. I visit her website daily and belong to her 'street team'!!! I enter every contest on that website and can you believe I won the last one? Yup! I should be getting a personally signed picture from this amazing peron!!! I am so excited about that!!!

I even got the awesome chance to meet her! Now I wouldn't say I am sorry that I got that chance - but I so deperately want to go back in time and grow a spine! I can not begin to explain how embarrassed I am on how I reaacted in front of the one person I would have died to meet. You know that question "Who is the one person, living or dead, that you would like to meet and/or have dinner with" = yup = she was it! I have a picture saying I was there - but I can barely remember the moment in time when that was taken! All I know - I couldn't talk! Here was my one-in-a-million chance = and I BLEW IT! I remember watching, in awe, from the back of her meet-n-greet line and being amazed that she was even nicer in person than I thought! She greeted everyone so friendly - how are you - glad you are here --- that kind of thing! She was everything I had always heard she would be in person! Everyone got a chance to have their picture taken with her - but they said no autographs!
Now -- the man in front of my husband and I was holding a teddy bear that a local radio dj asked if he would have Reba sign. Like I said- she didn't sign anything for most of this line, but when the wicked old ginch from the concert promoter told that guy with the teddy that Ms. McEntire wasn't signing anything = would you believe Reba took that teddy bear out of that wicked woman's hands and signed it right in front of her!!! LOL!!! I was not about to loose my chance! But I had come prepared - I had her latest CD with me and I also had a sharpie that I borrowed from a friend of mine working for the radio station broadcasting there!!!
Now being the ultimate fan that I am, I had prepared for this moment! I ran this over and over again in my mind, what I would say, how I would hug her!!! I had it planned!!! I even had a gift that I had crafted for her (a quilled version of her signature) and had it wrapped in a sunflower gift bag! I had put a note in the bag with a personal message to her because I just knew this would be my only chance!
And there it was - THE PRESSURE!!!! This would be the ONLY chance I would have to stand in front of her - OMG! And that ladies and gentlemen was all it took - I failed - I stood in front of my idol like a 2 year old stands in front of friggin Mickey Mouse for the first time! I froze! My husband had to talk for me!! Can you believe that? I was a 30 year old dumb ass!

At least I can say I was there - right!!! ***sigh*** I'm a lost cause - I am sure of that!

My sister!

Can I tell you that I am so, incredibly proud of my sister! She is an amazing person! She is three years younger than me, lives in California by the beach, is fluent in Spanish and runs marathons for the Leukemia Society (we lost our aunt to the disease). She is a strong, independant woman who is not afraid to tell you like it is!
She ran a half marathon (13.1 miles) a couple weekends ago in San Francisco for the Leukemia Society! She is very active in raising money for this wonderful charity! I wish I could be more like her!
And today (11/6/05) - she is running in the biggest marathon of them all - the New York City Marathon! Did you know that you can not just GO to the NYC Marathon? You have to be invited in a way. You put your name in and if you are drawn - then you go. (At least that was the way I understood it). According to the television coverage today - the NYC Marathon is hosting 37 THOUSAND runners - can you believe that? They said that 88 thousand people put their names in to run this marathon and my sis was one of the lucky ones to get pulled!!!
I am just so proud of her! She has made a life for herself and shares it with her husband and their dog and cat. No kiddos there folks - but they pamper the pets just as much! My sister absolutely loves my son - she is forever calling me and asking "would he like this" or "I will send him that"! She is amazing! She also keeps in touch with my step-daughter which is so important to me! My step-daughter does not have a strong female role in her life (short story - her mom has 5 kids but 3 different men and goes out for what I call HOE'n all the time and leaves my step-daughter to watch the kids - she even has to get them up and ready for school every morning! Ok - enough venting)! I am just so glad my step-daughter has my sister to talk to! What a great influence she can be!

I'm a proud sis!

***UPDATE*** My sister finished the NYC Marathon in a personal best time! She finished it in 4 hours, 58 minutes and 55 seconds!!! She placed 24,109 out of the 37,000 that ran! I am so proud of her! What an awesome effort!!! And she said it was an INSANE experience! Lots of people across the whole thing cheering them on - kept her motivated!!!

Take Two

Hello and welcome!
This is my second blog - I say "second" because the first one I created = http://myplaceformeincolorado.blogspot.com/ I can not remember the password to access. So - this is take two! I created my first blog in September - and there must have been something about it - because the day I created it - I was fired! You can read all about my "job" on the original blog - I won't bore you with the details. Now I work for a doctor's office for considerably less money and less responsibility - in fact - it is a lot less of just about everything - and to tell you the truth - I am not impressed. But it helps pay the bills I suppose. Who cares if I like it! I really like the people I work with - but as far as what I do - I am a glorified telephone operator and chart finder person! In a nutshell - it is one disfunctional family and I am now part of it! I keep scanning the newspaper and the local work force center for something else - but nothing has come up yet! Keep your fingers crossed for me!

Well anyway - that is my work life - now on to other posts about other things!

My weekend as a "hunting widow"

This weekend - it is just my son and I. My husband has taken off to go hunting and we are here at home hoping that he gets something! My husband loves to hunt - he hunts elk right now but would love to advance to other animals. I am just hoping that he does get an elk this year - it is his third year hunting and he hasn't got an animal before. He would be so happy to be able to come home with an elk - not to mention that I would be happy to have all that meat in the house!
Anyway - it is just me and my son for now and can I tell you that I am not sure one of us will make it out - LOL!!! I am going insane! First of all - I do not sleep well when my husband is away - I just don't. So it is wine and sleeping pills and I am trying to shake off the effects as we speak. I was up until 2am playing internet games and took one pill at 1am. The dog got me up at 4:30am to pee. I put him in his crate after that and tried to sleep some more - got up at 8:30am and here I am. This is the second day for this routine and I have to work tommarrow - this should be fun!!!

Let me tell you about our day yesterday. My husband asked me to get a front end alignment and a tire rotation on our Jeep while he was gone. So I took the Jeep (and my son) to a Big O Tires out by a shopping center and the mall. I dropped it off at 9:22am to be exact and was told that it would be an hour and a half (which I expected because it was Saturday). SOOOO - my son and I walked over to the shopping center and shopped at Petco and Michaels. We walked around for an hour and then took our bags back to Big O - where we noticed my Jeep was next in line to go into the garage! YEAH!!! They did the tire rotation and then took the Jeep around back where it sat. 30 minutes later - I asked about the status of the alignment and was told that it is in line and that it would still be a little bit. OK - my son and I went back to the shopping center and this time went into a juice bar that I did not feel I should spend that much money on, to Bed, Bath and Beyond to window shop, to a gift basket place where my son got a sample of pistacios that this place was WAY too proud of, then to the Vitamin Cottege where I bought some organic barley to make a soup with! "K" - we have now spent a good 45 minutes away from Big O - surely my Jeep was done!
NOPE! It was still sitting in the same damn place it was when I left it. Ok - to recap - I was told an hour and a half - it is now almost 2 and a half hours and my Jeep is still not done and I am now being told that it will take at least another hour (but they have bumped me up a spot to next in line). OKIE DOKIE - I am getting a lot pissed not to mention my poor nine year old is going nuts! So I have them drive me to the mall (turned out not to be such a long drive - but hey why not). My son and I eat lunch at Subway and spend some time in the arcade. I could not get cell service in the mall but after spending a good hour in the mall - I figured that they tried to call and couldn't get me to tell me that I could have my vehicle. SO my son and I walk back to Big O. And sure as shit - the Jeep is in the SAME DAMN PLACE it was when we left. Now - I am ready to blow my top! I ask about it and was told - oh the lady when bumped you in front of came back and demanded her car so you were dropped back again and it will be another hour at least! OMG - I have never been so mad! I told them to bring me my keys - that this was the poorest excuse for a business that I have ever come in contact with and my son and I left. Over 3 and a half hours and still no alignment! I am still fuming! Wonder if there is a Big O website to visit to leave comments. HMMMMM - might have to check that out!
Other than that whole thing - the day went well after that! LOL.